OOh new toy
Well, the boy does come up trumps. One day i got a text saying he had a nice catalogue to look at, i laughed and asked him what it was, he said “it’s filled with lots of nice stuff for Sandy”, ok so i was a bit sceptical. However, when i arrived home i saw it was a magazine advertising laptops from Dell. Woohoo. So had a look, picked out the one i wanted and he said he would get it for me. Spoiled or what, I LOVE IT. So that was about 2 weeks ago and me thinking Ryan been Ryan it would be next year before i got it. BUt lo and behold i came home from work this morning and there it was waiting for me.
Am well chuffed with himself, he’s definately getting a cooked dinner tonight..tee hee
And i relaised it’s my first ever laptop/computer ever personally owned by myself and me only. I even got to describe what it was myself… it’s a laptop that has 10 fingers, loves long songs and giggles regulary.
I’m having loads of fun now organising my bookmarks into sections and later i’ll start the tranfer of my documents over to it..i’ll leave that one for Ryan.
How am i?
I don’t really know how to answer that question. I stayed at work last night, choose not to go home as i thought i was okay. I could not sleep then (I get to sleep at night for my job..lucky me hey). I spent the early morning crying, i could feel my body shake, even though i don’t think it was.
Throughout the whole evening i felt i was on over drive, i was responsible for the teenager i work with and i needed to ensure my colleague was okay, she was still in shock. She went home and seen the doctor, another staff came in. It was so good to talk about the event but i knew i needed a hug from Ryan and my own bed, but i couldn’t let myself say, “i need to go home”.
The thoughts running through my mind last night. How the fuck did i manage in deep water with waves crashing and a strong currant to remain calm and help two people. I mean if that was normally i would panic if i went into deep water.
i was holding onto the Bogey board making sure the girl i was working with did not let go as she wanted to let go and swim it, but i knew that if she let go of the board there was a higher risk of her going under, on top of that one of the boys who came to help started splashing in the water. Was he about to go under. I reached out and grabbed his wet suit, like grabbing a dog by the collar, lifted him up, that’s another mystery to me, got my arm under his arm and helped him to get steady again. All of this was happening with what seamed like huge waves and a very strong currant dragging us out.
I don’t know how we managed it. But we got out all together. We were dragged over by the rocks, so that was an event in itself trying to get across, but we did it. We still had our lives.
I will be eternally grateful to those boys, whoever they are who risked their lives to come out to us.
me, i still can’t believe what i am capable of. I need to believe it, because i did it.
My frikkin arms and back is killing me.
How to save a life!
I kind of saved a life tosay. Myself, my work mate and the person we work with were in Garretstown beach bodyboarding today. To cut a long story short she got out to deep, couldn’t get back in. I went out to help her. Encouraged her to remain calm and keep holding onto the board. The waves were quite strong at this point and the current even stronger. We called to two surfers for asssitance. The board they had ended up getting torn away from them. The surfer then got into difficulty and started paniking and flapping his arms around the place. I grabbed hold of him by the wetsuit and held him up until he got control of himself. We all managed to get ashore, getting bashed into rocks in the mean time.
I’ve been in overdrive since then as i am responsible for the person i work with. My hands are beginning to feel shaky now, i guess thats the shock starting to hit me. I texted my red cross trainer to thank him so much for the training he has giving me in situations like this, i am so grateful for him and all the red cross.
One thing i have learned is to remain calm and to talk to the patient. I did all that, kept myself calm as well even though it was scary.
I’ll write more when i can. I jsut needed to get this down. Sorry for the spelling mistakes.
One thing i do know is that i am well proud of myself and know i am capable of for more than i believe i am.
